I see myself becoming a worse person every day. I'm bitter.
I complain too much. I call things bad because people tell me
to. I parrot popular opinions endlessly in search of a reaction,
be it a positive or a negative one.

I'm helpless in my own decline, somehow. I am standing
at the edge, but I am also the one falling in. I reach out
towards myself but we never seem to meet.

I need to become the person I used to be again.
apologize to my friends.

No, not that. I need to show people that I am good, somehow.
If that means having to dissapear for months at a time, like my
brain is telling me to, so be it.