26-04-2024
a way to tell someone 'you left me when I was at my lowest' without upsetting them.
07-05-2024
it felt cruel to say 'She's basically dead to me already' but it is the truth. Self-preservation made me leave her behind a pretty long time ago. She keeps acting like she's the victim in this situation. If there's a victim at all, it's us, not her. But she seems so sad. She cried when we said goodbye that day. It wasn't even our last meeting.
29-05-2024
I am such a toxic and jealous person it's actually not normal anymore. I think I should go to jail or die or something.
05-06-2024
embarrassingly, perversely, even, I sit here, thinking 'how long will it take until they notice?'. I've played this game before. It has never served me well. I keep playing.
07-06-2024
I don't know why it took me so long to notice that most times when someone gets coffee for the office they get some for everyone except me. One colleague said 'oh, they probably just forgot which day you were working' but that doesn't exactly happen three subsequent days, I'd think. Yesterday everyone except me got a slice of cake. I feel like an idiot.
24-06-2024
You're turning into him. He wouldn't do the same for you. You're taking it too far. Be careful.
08-08-2024
I don't think anyone is laughing anymore. I keep telling the same joke regardless. Look at me. Look at the spectacle I made of myself. Please look. If nobody else sees what I did it might as well not have happened at all.
17-08-2024
Reread something my friend said about me back in 2021. About how they're afraid to talk to me because they don't want to hurt me. That's not what I want to be. I don't want to be fragile. I want to be dependable.