06-03-2024
looking back on it, maybe I should've just let him hurt me. maybe I wouldn't be alone now. he said he wanted to 'fix' me, like, some kind of corrective rape thing. ...I'm afraid at the mere idea and moreso that my brain is seriously starting to consider that as 'better' over my current loneliness. jesus christ, man. you're pathetic.
11-04-2024
holiday haunted by a moment wherein I saw my reflection. gigantic. non-human. I want to be the kind of person who can post a selfie without being doxxed by 4chan for being a landwhale or whatever they do over there.