I'm beginning to feel like I never actually dealt with any of the things that happened or the
emotions I felt. I very clearly remember being seventeen-or-so and thinking, genuinely, that
I didn't exist. That nobody could see me and nobody cared. From this, I learned that if you
tell someone something like this, they won't care. At most they'll look at you like you're
crazy, which you very well may be. It doesn't exactly inspire confidence.

I, full-grown-adult as I am, still haven't learned when to shut up. I've gotten better at it.
but I'm really struggling with it right now. Deleting most of my messages immediately after
I realize they're not interesting. Don't send that. Think first. Don't tell them about yourself.
don't change the topic. Only talk about what they like. Answer shortly. And shut up. For the
love of god, shut up. Don't talk. Nobody likes when you talk. Nobody likes your voice.

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